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Why Gemini is the Master of Detached Love

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Why Gemini is the Master of Detached Love

 Colin and Char - Gemini Sun, Capricorn Moon, Leo Rising astro twins with a composite yod - the finger of God. This image is so self-indulgent, yes. Blame the Leo part.

Colin and Char - Gemini Sun, Capricorn Moon, Leo Rising astro twins with a composite yod - the finger of God. This image is so self-indulgent, yes. Blame the Leo part.

"Detachment doesn’t mean you don’t let the experience penetrate you. On the contrary, you let it penetrate you fully. That’s how you are able to leave it." -Mitch Albom, Tuesdays with Morrie


It's Gemini season and before y'all get too carried away with your "Satan's minions are coming" memes, take some time to learn from your masters of detached love - we, the children of Mercury!

Gemini is the third sign and season of the astrological year. After the Aries Ram and the Taurus Bull, Gemini brings the first appearance of humanity to the zodiac. Our symbol - The Twins - indicates how we inherently understand partnership and connection.


When my astro twin Colin approached me on my birthday last year at the Northwest Astrological Conference in Seattle, my world was irrevocably changed. 


I have deep, sincere love for many people, but the love I instantly experienced upon reuniting with Colin was unlike any other. I was so tripped out, I wrote a damn dissertation on our Astro tWINNING convergence and the Divinity of Cosmic Relationships.  

 Destiny's children of Mercury. Seattle, WA - May 2016

Destiny's children of Mercury. Seattle, WA - May 2016

So. We love each other, of course. But what does it mean? 


Love is a many splendored thing, but one thing it is NOT is attachment.


It can be challenging for some other zodiac signs to comprehend the notion of detached love (I'm looking at you, water signs), but if anyone can break it down for you, it's we Gemini Mirrors of Mercury.


Love Lockdown

In the context of people who are sexually oriented to one another, when you meet someone with whom you have irresistible magnetism and mutual affinity, I would say it's quite commonplace for people in our society to then want to consume the other.


By consume, I mean to exclusively partner with.


By consume, I mean to own. To acquire. To capture. To have them be YOUR one and only everything. To put a ring on it. To have that be your bae. 

To lock. Dem. Down.

Now, any adept metaphysical advisor will tell you that relationships based on possession are outmoded. 



Love is a VERB - an action, a motion, a choice. Love is not a noun, nor a thing to be owned. Just like other material things, possessions never fulfill, because they are external. 


Matrimony is a patriarchal bureaucratic transacting construct, historically intended to turn women, children, and assets of the marriage into property of the man -- and in turn, the state, since they give you the license and certificate and "permission" to merge your lives. 

Even with legal gay marriage, it still is subjecting the union (and its products) to the mercies and permission of government entities, since the institution of marriage is ultimately a business contract and has nothing to do with love or even commitment. 


Now, although I am wary of the notion of man-made contractual love, I don't dismiss it. Intimate long term committed partnerships of course have their value and place in terms of stability. 


Monogamy is also a mature choice and allows for an evolved type of deep connection to occur. It allows us to create a family unit and to have that person who has your back and build an empire and create legacy and continue a lineage.


But another thing to consider is that as the Age of Aquarius continues to gear up, we are now operating in a new sphere of consciousness.


What IS Detached Love?

We can have our monogamous connections and choose to share parts of ourselves exclusively with one other person, but Gemini knows better than anyone that we can also experience detached universal love in many ways, with multiple people, at the same time. None of my other relationships have to detract from my primary one, but rather add to it because I am able to receive different benefits from different people instead of putting all the pressure on one person.




Colin also wrote about this on Instagram:

I'm up in my Gemini energy, so let me explain why pop astrology crucifies us. 

Most don't know how to express great love and feel like they're getting their 'needs' met, right? They have emotional muscle spasms when their attachment style isn't reciprocated or certainty isn't given. 


If one sign carries the cross of hardly giving in to people's needs or false illusions of certainty, it's mine. Which is why Geminis are the whipping post. Detached Love is our modus operandi. 


Buddha said "...the root of suffering is attachment." But what do we do? Attach the tenor of our day to the whim of every Tom, Dick, and Stanley and wonder why we're sad.

Why do we we confuse love with ownership? So I have to drop everything and betray my integrity because you have a void that needs to be filled? Nope. 
We all have wounds. We all had childhood. Regardless of where or who you got them from, they're yours now. Yes that sucks. Mine are mine to fix. So are yours. So let's stop clinging to what gives us emotional turmoil and stop enabling self-indulgence. 
But if we understand relationship as the context for those wounds to be re(cognized) via detox so we can individually do the work, then we have a solid foundation for this process. But relationships don't take the pain away. They shine painful light on where our wires are crossed!

If you give me total acceptance, I'll return that. I'll grow from your acceptance. I'll fly right next to you and always look out for you. I'll show up for you every time (not to fulfill a need) but a desire. I'll say what I mean and mean what I say. No mind-reading. Like Mercury, I'll fly you to heaven's gate and I'll hold your hand when you're in your personal hell. But I'm free to come and go for as little or as long as I feel authentic. And so are you.


(Not inspired by one person. Just many years of research)" -Colin Bedell

Amen! Ase! Aho! Hallelujah!


In truth, it is a tall order and unrealistic to expect one person to fulfill all your needs for companionship. We are not the same generation of people who were of marrying age, say, in the 1950s or '80s--we're overly connected and have too many options for everything.


However, it IS beneficial to cultivate a whole tribe of family with whom you can share life, intimacy, authenticity, and support.


The Illusion of Separation

Colin lives in New York and I in Chicago. When we get together, there is a part of me that wishes we lived closer and that I could see him more often than just seasonally. 

 The Leo Rising King and Queen of Queens, NY - August 2016

The Leo Rising King and Queen of Queens, NY - August 2016

But the truth is- since he and I reunited last year, I have never felt separate from him. At all. 

 Morning messages. Ah sweah to goddess. He's better than Rumi to me.

Morning messages. Ah sweah to goddess. He's better than Rumi to me.

I've yet to feel a deficit of intimate connection with him because we cultivate that daily, and are eternally energetically enmeshed regardless of where our physical vessels may be.

We also have shared our iPhones' locations with each other so I basically can always see where he is in the world at every moment, and he can me, which is kind of ridiculous and stalker-ish, but also kinda funny.

"I just walked past Caroline Kennedy!" he'll text me from Manhattan. "You know I love that family."

"Oh yeah? Awesome!" I'll write back from Lake Shore Drive in Chicago. "I see you're in Washington Square Park."

"I am! Want to come to my brother's birthday party?"

"Um YES. I'll be there in 11 minutes."

Technological corniness aside, this is a perfect example of the embodiment of the Age of Aquarius!


Another thing about my astrotwin is that HE is so beautiful (his Venus next to his Jupiter in Gemini = BIG BEAUTIFUL LOVE), that everyone I have met through him is just as beautiful because he is a magnet for his similar resonance. We even spent time with one of his former romantic partners recently in Washington D.C., and to see the genuine admiration, respect and friendship between them was so beautiful. 


Colin's connections are all impeccably lovely and light-filled, and I've never met a family member or associate of his whom I didn't immediately love.

 Colin and I took February's SisterGiant 2017 by storm with his grandma and had a hilariously fun time!

Colin and I took February's SisterGiant 2017 by storm with his grandma and had a hilariously fun time!

All of it is a gift.


Queer Cosmic Love

Queer men (as a blatant generalization) tend to be much more in touch with the feminine aspect than men who consider themselves straight. There's much to be said about the soul-deep intimacy that occurs between men and women who are not sexually oriented to one another. It removes the sexual tension and creates all the space in the world for true heart-centered connection without possession, ulterior motives, nor cuffing agendas. 


And isn't that all we should actually have in life? The opportunity to express love to the highest power without the extra baggage of ownership and then expectations? 


“The moment love becomes a relationship, it becomes a bondage, because there are expectations and there are demands and there are frustrations, and an effort from both sides to dominate. It becomes a struggle for power...
“Two persons can be very loving together. The more loving they are, the less is the possibility of any relationship. The more loving they are, the more freedom exists between them. The more loving they are, the less is the possibility of any demand, any domination, any expectation. And naturally, there is no question of any frustration.” -Osho, The Hidden Splendor, Talk #25


Because there is no agenda in Colin's and my convergence, doing things with and for him is an outpouring of my love for him instead of an emotionally laborious task. 


Another one of the traps of relationships is that we want what we can't have, then we take for granted that which is constantly in our presence and get annoyed with each other. This is actually basic economics! 


So because I don't see Colin every day, I value in-person time with him more, and become fully present and completely saturated in the unconditional essence of love and devotion while it is physically accessible to me.


 Just love. Washington, D.C., February 2017

Just love. Washington, D.C., February 2017


Then, I am able to let it all go because I appreciated it while it was there. I allowed the experience to penetrate me fully, and as such, letting it go and being detached is just as fulfilling. 


Besides. Geminis really don't NEED anyone.


Again, There's a reason why Geminis are so lovingly referred to as the fuckboys of the zodiac. Gems are twins unto ourselves and are our own best company. ;)


Presence: the Garden of Love

We can admire flowers in a garden, but pulling them from the earth and cutting their stems to keep them to ourselves in a vase means the flower is instantly dead. The beauty remains for a little while, then eventually dries out.


However, by maintaining the life-force roots and repotting a flower in soil to be a self-contained, nourishing unit unto itself, is a gift to that plant and demonstrates that everything is possible.


As Gemini King Kanye West said, "y'all should be honored...that I would even show up" and "my presence is the present."


May Gemini season and the children of Mercury remind us to nurture our beloveds as we would plants in the soil: as self-sustaining individuals who bring beauty and fresh oxygen to our space just by being there. 


 The President + First Lady of Astrology. Kew Gardens, Queens, NY - August 2016

The President + First Lady of Astrology. Kew Gardens, Queens, NY - August 2016